dear diary..

I know that there are finals that I should be studying like mad but although I look like I am the happiest person in the world, actually I am not.
I have gone through things that I cannot even imagine and now I am afraid, what else is waiting for me out there? Does this pain has an ending? I really wonder...

The Title

I wonder who is going to be the winner of the blog race :) There might be some surprises....

please come back 'the blogging spirit'

Although we have only 3 weeks left I am still hopeful about 'the blogging spirit' to come back.
Before the maths exam one of my friends called me and I was shocked because she supposed to be in US but she made a surprise and she came early. I was just happy. She made my day. Then I had the maths exam and it was pretty bad and it was my fault, I couldn't remember the things that I supposed to remember.
Last but not least, right after the maths exam I met Ayşe and we worked on our presentation and be prepared for our presentation because IT WILL BE WONDERFUL!!!

5. Stereotypes

I am just being honest in this post, I don't pretend that I am such a perfect person that has no stereotypes, even though I don't generalize people and judge them according to their specific characteristics, I still have some stereotypes.

Before I read:
My list of stereotypes for Asian students:
They work really hard.

Imm I guess that is all for my stereotypes for Asian students, I couldn't think of any other so, look I am almost perfect : )

As I read:
I felt bad when I realized that my stereotype for Asian students was same in the reading. Anyway, I would like to write about my theoretical and practical reactions. As anyone else in the world in theoretical, I will stay calm and try to offense myself and my ethnic background. I will be explaining patiently what I think and why am I right and why s/he is wrong. However in practice probably I will act like her.

4. It is all about the research paper, nothing special really.

I would like to write a research paper about the option three: adolescence.
I think this is not a surprise for especially Sonja and Can because I am acting as an adolescent lately.
If I do my work good then I could understand myself better.
As a result this research process will be very beneficial for me.
Since I will be analysing various aspects of adolescent identity formation in coming of age film(s) and/or novel(s) of my choice, do I need to decide those film(s)/or novel(s) by tomorrow?
That is it for now, have a good Sunday evening or have a good time whenever you read this post.

puf

I was going to reread the short story and the article and write a blog post about them. I have got too much to write about them but I have more buts...

It is almost 4 o'clock in the morning and I don't, can't, couldn't sleep.

Dear Elaine, what is the reason that keeps me awake 4 o'clock in the morning?
Why are you insipid and I am not?
At least I could manage to sleep....

2. Please tell me why Elaine?

Why did you run away with Benjamin Elaine? Why? Why?

Thanks to digitürk, I have watched "The Graduate" for several times but it was the first time that I watched it as a whole.
No need to mention that this movie covers several different topics from several different aspects.

I would like to start from the thing that made me think about a lot, I just can't understand why Elaine left with Benjamin. Everybody knows that he is wrong, she knows this, but still she left with him. I don't know he had an affair with her mother and this didn't stop her. I just can't understand. What kind of love is this? They say, love is blind and sometimes I believe this but in Elaine's situation, it is unbelievable.

About the phony adults vs real adolescents I believe it is very hard to draw a straight line between them because everybody is different and everybody changes. There might be phony adults and there might be phony adolescents. For example, the man Elaine was going marry was a phony adolescent. Moreover by having an affair with Mrs. Robinson doesn't make Benjamin's world more real. I believe there are some other things that will make their life more real. It wasn't even love..

About the generational conflict, I know it is a cliche but we have it all the time and now it seems very normal to me. Yesterday my mom told me that only I am going to be responsible for the mistakes that I did when I am young. The things she calls mistakes makes me smile but I try not to rebel, I try to understand her. I wish Benjamin and Elaine had a different story but unfortunately it is not possible.

I guess I will continue after today's class discussion..